The other night I had a bit of a movie night and sat back and watched the Gladiator. I didn’t really think to much into it at the time but just sat back and enjoyed the movie. The next morning I woke up and the movie was very much on my mind still and I had a long moment of deep thought about what the movie depicts, and not just this movie, but all movies or stories that depict similar narrative.
Although these stories of great warriors are passed down to us through the history books there is no way to really know how accurate these stories are or if they even really happened, but it cannot just be coincidence that all the stories follow a similar pattern, where the warrior is proud to die on the battlefield. The warrior is depicted as a selfless man. He has family, a community, a band of brothers a group of people he is willing to die to protect and as a warrior he is proud of his life’s path and views it as a great honour to die on the battlefield. The Viking, The Roman, The Spartan, The Celt, The Barbarian and many more all follow this same narrative.
As I said before it seems more than just coincidence that all these stories from so many different cultures, with many different belief systems have passed down stories that are all so similar. It got me thinking about todays culture and where this warrior fits into our modern world.
Back in the days of these historical warriors communities were a lot smaller and battles were a lot more frequent in the small term than they are today. Today we are protected by massive armies run by governments and countries so the narrative of the warrior is a lot harder to follow within the plain and simple mention of a battlefield. Todays warriors are more difficult to depict within our small communities and the passion and pride that the ancient warrior brought to a community are becoming lost.
It was here that my thoughts led to death and how people deal and handle with the loss of someone close to them. Im sure in the years the ancient warrior existed, once they passed there was still a great mourning within their community, but from the stories there was also a great depth in the strength and pride that the death of a warrior provided. Through personal experience I can say that when I dealt with the loss of my Grandad, a person from a young age that i saw as a warrior, I was a crumbling mess. For years I was destroyed by his loss and this caused waves of pain and torment not only for myself but in most of the things that I tried to do. Relationships failed, massive mistakes were made, and a willingness to run and hide from dealing with the issues unfolded throughout many aspects of my life.
One day I was challenged towards my thoughts of the loss of this warrior and it was here where i was led to looking back at history about what a warrior actually meant and how many other people go through dealing with death or loss in general. Many people go through a similar pattern that I did and become emotionally unstable, turning to alcohol, self loathing, suicide, just as I did. Depression sets in and the deep dark hole grows day by day and seems harder and harder to find a way out of and the hurricane this creates around us seems to just destroy anything we touch.
I wish I had learnt the power and imagery of a warrior sooner, as it may have taught me how to deal with this loss where my hurricane would not have been as destructive and the wake would not have been as large. That being said though it may not have led me to the path I am on right now so there is always a beauty to see in any storm.
The Warrior is a strong powerful person, just like my Grandad. He fought his entire life for my family. To keep them safe, to provide for them and he was a very proud and determined man and passed away with his family doing something that he loved. He passed away teaching not just myself, but my Brother, Cousins, Aunties and Uncles such valuable lessons and should not be a man be in sadness because of his passing but a man that provided me and many others with so many valuable lessons of life. Someone to continue to aspire to be and someone to continue to learn from.
In any form of loss this simple pattern of the warrior can be followed. In death, in the loss of a relationship, in the loss of anything around you. There is always a massive strength that can be gained from the teaching of anything that existed around you. In a person it could be the way they held themselves and how that moulded your life. In a relationship it could be the power that being able to open yourself up and share the love that you have in your body with someone is powerful, and that you have the strength and resilience to learn this lesson.
Through any dark moments there is always a power within the situation that can be learnt and followed to help give you strength and belief. Just like the warrior who was proud to die on the battlefield protecting the cause be proud to live your life knowing you have shared in the strength of the death close to you or be proud at what your relationship has taught you. Emotions can often cloud your strength, but be willing to understand these emotions and what they really mean and you too can become that warrior who will one day pass leaving an immense strength to those around you for what you fought for and what power you had within.
Depression through any situation can often be a tormenting time and if you are reading this today feeling the hole that depression creates don’t be afraid to REACHOUT. We will always be here for you and offer guidance.